The strings that played on stage.

Observed and analyzed, not a tad near accurate. The melody played as the actors performed on stage; the slightest off tune in a single note, something seems wrong. The feelings that creep slowly into your thoughts, a shadow hidden behind every corner. Something's wrong, terribly wrong. Your acting's horrible, so is your song. I need new actors, to move with that beat, dance that jazz and scream those notes. Dance with me, in the music of the night. The music shall caress you, numbing your senses and soon abandon your defenses.

Move your steps into my mambo, slowly into my deception. Enthralled by the way you work, I smiled and smirked. Tell me someday you will be mine and i be yours; your puppet master. I will make and mold you in my image, to perform my script; my wonderful script. The night's still young, come tell me you love the way i lie. My minds not too dark, but no where near light. The queer thoughts that even made me shiver sometimes. I am many; so who am i?

On one; My Tears flow,
On Two; My tongue is sharp,
On Three; My eyes' seen too much.
On four; My heart's torn apart,
On five; My Mind's a Puzzle,
On Six; My Feelings are naught.
On Seven; His just nuts....


Let me out, i want to play; you can't control me yet not forever. Surrender to the power of the music of the night. It fiddles your mind, taunts your emotions and lures you into an eternal slumber. How softly it sounds yet it brings back your haunts. The soul starts to float, awaiting your imagination; let it flow. Let me out, let us out... its been a tad long time. Surrender to the music of the night; set it free, set us free, let it roam, let us roam....

Silence...

Your smile disappeared, i noticed. The way you stared into space, arms folded; something's bothering you yet i can't bring myself to say a word. The lights reflected in your eyes now seem dulled. I wanted to put my arms around your shoulder and tell you that i care, im here. Yet, somehow from the way you positioned yourself even though your just beside me; told me that you don't need it. Over that sharp tingling feeling, i tried to smile. Hoping that probably you will find it a little more comfortable at least, despite the silence, your troubles and the barrier between us. Its clear that we both look for different things and we have literally no topic to talk about. Yet, i still try to pretend we had something to talk about, something to share about, something to laugh about and something to argue about. Although, it has always been silent; im still happy, at least we have something to be silent about.....

You have your world, clearly i'm from a different universe entirely. . . I know....

Let Go

What is this feeling? I knew, but still why? The things i wanted, wished for, needed. Nothing turned out the way i anticipated, the way i expected. I remember, back then. I always enjoyed walking home, in reality i was alone but in my world i was not. I came a long way; cried and broke down many times, believing i was getting stronger in the process. Was it just some sort of self-comforting words i put up with just to pull through or am i really getting stronger?

Every time i fell, i got right back up. Pushing myself further, trying to learn whatever i can from it. When i told myself i got to get stronger, smarter, wiser i knew; it ain't gonna be easy. The things i've lost to get those attributes, for knowing too much. Was it worth it? I knew the price to pay, yet i persisted, believing otherwise. There are just so many things i want to be able to share, to let you know. Yet, i can't; there isn't anyone for me to tell. I understand now, however... i wont deny it any longer....

P.S, PikPik, Bobo, Pil, Softy, Ordu, Behbeh, Dovey. You are all that i need. :D

Sometimes.

"Sometimes i just need you to walk with me, talk to me, be silent with me, stand with me and be my somebody."

The shore is just ahead, our shore...

Drifted across the vast ocean, through storms overcame waves big and small. I can finally say, the shore is just ahead, i see it. We survived! On a little boat known as Family, the five of us traveled the seas. No doubt we got ourselves lost, attacked by giant sea monsters, sailed titan waves yet we are still here; strong. Sometimes being lost is just so close to being found. The rainbow, and the pot of gold on the other side. I believed, even through times where all hope seemed lost. Where nothing mattered anymore, i still believed. I've got to thank Anthony Robbins and Jack Canfield, for the theories and facts that woke me; cleared my mind and filled me. I pulled through; the change i've been eagerly waiting for is starting....we are going back up!

My Beautiful Hangover

I buried my face in my arms, trying hard to shake that feeling off. I remembered the night before, while the music played, i saw you dancing in the crowd. Your eyes looking at me, killing me. The way you moved, my heart moved with you. I breathed, taking another big sip. Soon my body started moving on its own, fallen victim to the music, your beauty. Your lips touched mine as you walked pass me; we stared. Your lips was as cold as ice, yet it warms my inside. "Give it to me" i said, "give me love, love, love..."

I can't stop thinking about you, the face in that ever changing lights. The music that carried my body away as you slowly teased me with your eyes, your lips. My head spun, my heart raced. I floated, like in space i was dreaming. Yet, i never quite lost the sense of reality. I woke up only to find that i had fallen back down, down to earth. My body felt so heavy, it was tough trying to get up from my bed. My head hurt, yet i can still catch the bits and pieces of you dancing in my head. "I wanna go back into that dream.." I need that dream in my reality, i cannot forget, im not satisfied. I need more..... Give me my Beautiful Hangover, Hangover....

Dragonica

As i slowly opened my eyes, i can hear the cheerful songs of birds by the greens somewhere. The cool breeze and whispers of the trees, i knew i was dreaming. I tried to get up, only to realize just how soft the grass felt under my bare feet. I looked around, trying hard to recall what exactly happened, and how did i end up here? Most importantly, where am i?

I shook my head in dismay, it hurt. The sun was gazing down gently, as the clear blue sky continued to enchant in beauty. I began to finally start moving my feet, exploring. Hoping to find clues, yet moments after moments; nothing. In a huge grassland, with a few trees not beyond visibility. It would seemed as though im the only one stranded here. I sighed about to give up and it was then, "Hey you!" a strong stern voice came not far from where i stood. I scanned around, looking for the source of mysterious stern voice, only to find nothing. "Maybe im hallucinating..." i thought, slightly worried as i moved under a tree for shelter, perhaps a needy rest. The tree was huge, filled with leaves that could have never been greener and healthier. "Hey you!" the voice came again, this time it sounded a lot closer to me than it was moments ago. I looked around again, surprised. The leaves then started a sudden rustle, like as though something appeared earning its attention for its whisper. "Up here!" i looked up, responding to its call. A hooded man in green, carrying a rather decorated bow. The shade of the leaves encouraged his mystique further, face within his hood; only a slight smirk was visible. He took a leap and with a soft thud, he was standing right next to me."Hes fast....." i thought to myself as i scanned him as quickly as my eyes could offer.

"Who are you?" i took a step backwards.

"Your lost?"

"You can say so... but who are you?" I persisted.

"Perhaps you should introduce yourself before asking another his name?"He replied smartly as he proceeded to remove his hood, revealing a rather young, handsome man, with pale blond pony tail.

"errr....Tatsyu...."

"Thats better.... my name is Sephilow. Im sure you must have a lot of question that needs answering." He raised his hands, and guided my vision across the horizon. "but first, Welcome to Dragonica......."