The Korean Dream

A lot of talk has been going around lately, about the above. Just look at it, enough said. Perhaps its the raging hormones or probably maybe, its a guy thing. Something that every guy seems to be secretly yearning for deep inside, whether or not they show it would be an entirely different issue; but at least they want it, they wish for it. Well, i have to say. So do I.

I am going to make it a point to do whatever it takes to get that, its a goal. Not just a dream that just ends up like another fantasy which only happens when you close your eyes or daydream. Rather something that will exist in reality, on me. Or.... i could crop my face onto this picture, but what good would that bring? If only you can just imagine me with that body. Ohhlala, how many innocent am i going to kill? (joking ^^) I have to get my lazy butt, and find the motivation to do it. Wait a minute, what the heck am i talking about? Just look at that body! Im motivated enough. Means what? No more fat food? Possibly no more smoking?

Like what Anthony Robbins used to say, humans are motivated by two things in life and only two; pain and pleasure. Whatever we do in our lives, no matter what decisions we make. We do them to avoid pain and gain pleasure. I guess i found my pain and my pleasure in wanting to work for something so sexy....mwahahahahaha! *grins

It would be a six month project for starters, but i figured its gonna take more than six month for something so perfect. Oh well, but not just the body. The hair (not tae yang's hair of course XD) and everything else. I will do it, i must, i have to!

Toilet Bowl

The smooth, semi reflective texture. Curved lines that shapes your unseen desires. As important as it is in our everyday lives, we speak little or not at all of it. How it holds and stays; be there when we are in need, when nature calls, we find that the toilet bowl is in fact our savior, our hero. I used to sit by the toilet bowl when i was younger, not for any other purpose except to connect with what i call my universe. A vast imaginative pool of limitless ideas or inspiration for me to tap into; to download data from. Other times, well you should know...

What marvelous invention it is, the flushing system. As unlikely it is to be something inspirational, it has its own educational values. When your life is just so filled up with shit, all you have to do is to take the courage and flush it all away. Some forget, some simply can't only because they think they can't. Well, flushing just ain't no problem or obstacle to me. When things get ugly or smelly, thank hade's penis there is a cap to hide it all away. Just like what people would normally do, hide it all away. I guess everything would be so much simpler if we can see it in the toilet bowl sense, cap it, flush it. Anyways, you must be wondering why am i writing about toilet bowl this very night while listening to jazz. I gotta say, its quite the challenge and one particularly out of the blue ridiculous challenge between me and Lee JunYang. I did it, so did he i suppose. Come to think of it, i haven't been blogging for the past month or so and i came back writing with a twist about toilet bowls. A good start, very good start.... haha XD

I think i finally had enough of that candy...

Tonight, i think i finally realized. Sometimes whatever things you may have pictured in your mind from time to time or perhaps fantasized about may not be the same when you are actually living it; funny. My throat has been suffering minor injuries since yesterday and i called in the white cavalry just one or two hours ago; pure white semi-shiny mineral known as Agent Salt. Conclusion? The two day war ended in thirty minutes; aliens lost and died. Hooray!

Not too long ago, someone told me "familiarity breeds contempt". The voices that lurks around every corner, the eyes the scans and gaze in your shadows. Imagination soon takes over your mysterious stalkers; under skins of others. I can't help but to say; i think i had enough. I can't do it, i just can't be that someone im not. I can't fit it. I feel terrible, unwanted, unaware, stupid, lost and perhaps like an idiot. Who am i to kid?

What an interesting day today. Drama filled day, wished i had popcorn when it happened. I saw people cheating people in relationships, playing mind games, friends getting jealous over miraculous reasons, people with family problems; most importantly i saw the things they were experiencing in form of tears, sarcasm alike.

Well im tired.. really tired...

I cant see...

Days passed and the skies turned from dark to gray. The more i tried desperately to figure out why, here i am missing the clicks made from a very old refrigerator that i used to fantasize about when i was just a few years younger. Those were the days when i felt all so terrified, so alone somehow. No matter who i was with or whom i was hanging out with, it was never enough.

College turned out just fine; crazy company fit for a crazy man like me. A group of friends whom we danced like monkeys and laughed about nipples over cigarette sessions just by the staircase. Meeting up for assignments yet ended up doing something else instead; and i met a boy whose all so perfect like a friend i never had. He has small eyes, messy hair, rather tall (taller than me) and a rather simple personality. You got to love his smile, his walk, his gestures and his voice. A unique one i would say; im happy i met you.

How much more could one possibly expect? Well im satisfied for now XD thanks.

Go Go Rangers!

I write whatever that comes to my mind. They say im crazy, well im not. Haven't been updating much lately, no more blues or jazz. Norah Jones bites the dust; Stevie Ray Vaughn keeps his guitar in the cemetery. Those were the nights when i felt all so alone, scared and empty. Those nights where hid myself in my secret fantasy getaway, with all so much to blog about. But now?

I Love You

I must be crazy now
Maybe I dream too much
But, when I think of you
I long to feel your touch

To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine

I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should have made my move when you looked in my eyes
'Cause, by now, I know that you'd feel the way that I do
And I'd whisper these words as you'd lie here by my side

I love you
Please say you love me, too
These three words, they could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
'Til the end of time

So, today, I fin'lly find
The courage deep inside
Just to walk right up to your door
But my body can't move
When I fin'lly get to it
Just like a thousand times before

Then, without a word, he handed me this letter
Read, I hope this finds the way into your heart
It said

Well, maybe I, I need a little love
And, maybe, I, I need a little care, yeah
And, maybe, I, maybe you, maybe you
Oh, you need somebody just to hold you
If you do, just reach out
And I'll be there

PikPik

I would first like to announce the arrival of Mr.PikPik last week. Haven't really got the time to update lately. All that god knows what I've been doing for the WHOLE of last week. Speaking of which, Naruto and Bleach came out two days ago. hehe *grins

College life will be starting soon; so many things to do before a new life begins. I have my car L license wayyyyyyyy overdue, my Gundams to touch up, a script to complete, a stop motion picture to film, Magic the Gathering Card Game to perfect, pictures to take; gosh there is just so much to do, so little time. Which reminds me, i need to get PikPik's lens on Broga Hills soon; to those who are interested (though i seriously doubt among my ring of friends, there will be more than two who are actually interested to climb a hill at possibly 4 in the morning just to take a sniff of nature and watch the bloody sunset)well, just let me know. ^^

Sherman is probably arranging another long forgotten game of Paintball, nyahhhhhh can't wait. I guess things are going pretty well lately, though somehow i still feel like something's missing. I got everything i wanted at the moment, yet something is still missing. Well anyways, hallelujah people i shall upload some pictures i took with PikPik's eyeballs next post! Ciaos!