I think i finally had enough of that candy...

Tonight, i think i finally realized. Sometimes whatever things you may have pictured in your mind from time to time or perhaps fantasized about may not be the same when you are actually living it; funny. My throat has been suffering minor injuries since yesterday and i called in the white cavalry just one or two hours ago; pure white semi-shiny mineral known as Agent Salt. Conclusion? The two day war ended in thirty minutes; aliens lost and died. Hooray!

Not too long ago, someone told me "familiarity breeds contempt". The voices that lurks around every corner, the eyes the scans and gaze in your shadows. Imagination soon takes over your mysterious stalkers; under skins of others. I can't help but to say; i think i had enough. I can't do it, i just can't be that someone im not. I can't fit it. I feel terrible, unwanted, unaware, stupid, lost and perhaps like an idiot. Who am i to kid?

What an interesting day today. Drama filled day, wished i had popcorn when it happened. I saw people cheating people in relationships, playing mind games, friends getting jealous over miraculous reasons, people with family problems; most importantly i saw the things they were experiencing in form of tears, sarcasm alike.

Well im tired.. really tired...

I cant see...

Days passed and the skies turned from dark to gray. The more i tried desperately to figure out why, here i am missing the clicks made from a very old refrigerator that i used to fantasize about when i was just a few years younger. Those were the days when i felt all so terrified, so alone somehow. No matter who i was with or whom i was hanging out with, it was never enough.

College turned out just fine; crazy company fit for a crazy man like me. A group of friends whom we danced like monkeys and laughed about nipples over cigarette sessions just by the staircase. Meeting up for assignments yet ended up doing something else instead; and i met a boy whose all so perfect like a friend i never had. He has small eyes, messy hair, rather tall (taller than me) and a rather simple personality. You got to love his smile, his walk, his gestures and his voice. A unique one i would say; im happy i met you.

How much more could one possibly expect? Well im satisfied for now XD thanks.

Go Go Rangers!

I write whatever that comes to my mind. They say im crazy, well im not. Haven't been updating much lately, no more blues or jazz. Norah Jones bites the dust; Stevie Ray Vaughn keeps his guitar in the cemetery. Those were the nights when i felt all so alone, scared and empty. Those nights where hid myself in my secret fantasy getaway, with all so much to blog about. But now?

I Love You

I must be crazy now
Maybe I dream too much
But, when I think of you
I long to feel your touch

To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine

I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should have made my move when you looked in my eyes
'Cause, by now, I know that you'd feel the way that I do
And I'd whisper these words as you'd lie here by my side

I love you
Please say you love me, too
These three words, they could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
'Til the end of time

So, today, I fin'lly find
The courage deep inside
Just to walk right up to your door
But my body can't move
When I fin'lly get to it
Just like a thousand times before

Then, without a word, he handed me this letter
Read, I hope this finds the way into your heart
It said

Well, maybe I, I need a little love
And, maybe, I, I need a little care, yeah
And, maybe, I, maybe you, maybe you
Oh, you need somebody just to hold you
If you do, just reach out
And I'll be there

PikPik

I would first like to announce the arrival of Mr.PikPik last week. Haven't really got the time to update lately. All that god knows what I've been doing for the WHOLE of last week. Speaking of which, Naruto and Bleach came out two days ago. hehe *grins

College life will be starting soon; so many things to do before a new life begins. I have my car L license wayyyyyyyy overdue, my Gundams to touch up, a script to complete, a stop motion picture to film, Magic the Gathering Card Game to perfect, pictures to take; gosh there is just so much to do, so little time. Which reminds me, i need to get PikPik's lens on Broga Hills soon; to those who are interested (though i seriously doubt among my ring of friends, there will be more than two who are actually interested to climb a hill at possibly 4 in the morning just to take a sniff of nature and watch the bloody sunset)well, just let me know. ^^

Sherman is probably arranging another long forgotten game of Paintball, nyahhhhhh can't wait. I guess things are going pretty well lately, though somehow i still feel like something's missing. I got everything i wanted at the moment, yet something is still missing. Well anyways, hallelujah people i shall upload some pictures i took with PikPik's eyeballs next post! Ciaos!

Of The Days Shadowed By Clouds and Quenching Rain, I Found My Rainbow.

I can't exactly recall the last time i asked myself how happy i really was. Alot has been going on lately; or rather much has happened over the past two weeks. For some reason, in my act of justice; the world now hates me. I was merely delivering their complains and ideals in form of justice, my justice. That being said, am i still wrong? They see now as the sweet innocent boy who for some unknown reason changed, and became that vicous, crazy maniac set loose on the political dancefloor. While i on the other hand, does their dirty work; materializing their inner-darker desires. Humans are such indespicable creatures.

Stop fighting? At what cause? For friends? WHAT are friends? Friends stand by you with full acknowledgement of your actions or go against you for principles that seemed right personally to them? Honestly, if you find it hard to understand me or my actions, or simply can't do it for whatever reasons to find that little bit of courage in you, then Just Don't Get Involved.... Swept by the violent undercurrent of more years to grow old, there simply isn't much left to lose.

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On the other hand, PENANG was awesome. With all that good food and stuff, was finally able to relax myself abit from all that jazz. Credits to Nelson for bringing me around to all the nice places and good food. Playing card games by the beach, gazing upon the horizon;while thesun sets, i pray to Aphrodite.

On the side note; I BOUGHT MYSELF A NEW PAIR OF CONVERSE!!!!!! YEEEHAA! Check out my baby!

Anyways, this was suppose to be a long post but im rather lazy. Will update more soon i suppose ahahah. Cheers!!

So Far...

Thunder cracking, earth shaking and people dying. So far, that is what's happening around the world lately. There are those who vowed to make the world a little bit better to live in, and others just don't seem to care.

When was the last time we took a break and understand each other instead of fighting for what seems right personally? The power of stubbornness in the wrong hands, while the lives of others suffer. Thus, injecting the world with more conflicts. That is the world we all live in, a world known as Earth, and a world we call home.

Yet its those conflicts that helps lay out the foundation in our lives; for the better or the worst. Ironic isn't it? Tell me about it. Well, Its been really tiring lately, with all that never-ending load of work.

I got my Salem's mask bout almost two weeks ago; and got myself some wrist bands. That's two of my goals this year; done. ^^


Anyways, a little update on what i got myself last week. A book by Anthony Robbins; "Awaken The Giant Within". Anthony "Tony" Robbins was born in February 29, 196o. An American self-help author and motivational speaker. His seminars and books features NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) and Ericksonian Hypnosis, something in which he was famous for.

Read the first chapter, and he was focusing on the effects of Decision making. One very powerful tool in which was believed to have been inside us since the dawn of the world; given to every man and woman. A power to shape their own dreams and ultimately their destiny. As quoted by him "It Is In Your Moments Of Decisions That Your Destiny Is Shaped"

Hopefully i may be able to share more as i adventure further into his book. Though i do recommend those who are interested to know the "SECRET" to get this book. Speaking of which i have designs to rush. Will update more soon, adios!